STUPID.

Went to school today, as usual.

Had lessons.

Left school earlier at 1.30pm.

Changed into FULL-U in the toilet.

Went to the canteen and ate bread.

Saw squadmates.

I was happy, but not very.

Sang birthday song for Charlene.

The whole canteen looked at us.

Fall in at the car porch at 2.15pm.

Went for practice shoot.

No more dry shoots.

This time, real bullets.

Went to popular to find markers.

Went home.

Ate dinner.

Bathed.

Revised chemistry.

And here i am.

I have a weird feeling.

Weird weird weird.

I dont look weird on the outside, but i feel weird inside.

Lots of things are happening O:

People are leaving.

Bad relationships with people.

I realised i havent been talking alot lately.

Like heh, seriously.

Maybe i'm jealous or what.

I dont know.

I am still trying.

Trying my best to ignore.

But dont you feel bad, at all?

Do i sound emo?

Yes, i think i am.

Somebody please make me laugh.

Why so serious?

I dont know.

I am not serious.

I am just taking things too seriously.

I care too much.

I worry too much.

I think too much.

I cant relax.

Why?

They dont even bother.

So why should i?

I cant concentrate.

I cant do what i want.

What is this?

What is happening?

I think somehow i weird.

I need to change.

Before people start leaving me again.

I think people dont like me.

I am sad.

Is this an emo post?

I dont think so.

I am just typing out what i feel.

Cause i hardly do this.

I think i need to have a great laugh seriously.

AHH.

Maybe i am too bored.

Maybe its just my own imagination?

Maybe nothing has changed?

Like real.

Sometimes it just hurt.

I need to learn how to let go.

I told Vanessa that.

I taught her how to let go so tomorrow will be better.

But i cant even do it myself.


And i still think tomorrow will be better.

And i seriously hope it does.

Cause i feel so ): right now.